i hope you read this ;
cause this is a letter from me to you .

if you hate me just say so!
dont make me a fool .. thinking that we're still friends!
why cant you just tell me the truth ..
just tell me the truth dat you hate me!
if you just told me , at least i wouldnt feel that much pain ...
but when someone came over to tell me that you hate me ..
it hurts more than having my heart broken by some guy!
it hurts so much that i just wanted to end my life .
i thought you were my BEST friend !
maybe im wrong about that!

you came over and told me you hate her ..
but yet you are always with her ..
maybe im a fool .. or what i dont know ..
i trusted you so much !
i thought we could be friends forever !
maybe .. maybe ..
friends are not meant to be forever bahs ..

i guess maybe i would just comtinue acting like a fool .
not believing what others are telling me ..
maybe just by doing that you would still pretend to be my friend ..
i dont mind if our friendship is a fake ,
cos i believe one day just one day ..
maybe this friendship would become real ..
i dont know what else i could do anymore ..
cos im already speechless ..
for what you had done really hurted my heart .
for what you had said left me ..
SPEECHLESS .

i hate myself for myself ..
cos the me is hated by you and so many ...
i know i aint be perfect ,
and i know i cant be perfect ..
but why cant you just like me for who i am .

heartbroken by you and him .
sadness that i dont dare to show .
tears that flowed down quietly .
happiness that cant be found .
smiles that are so fake .

i wake up with my pillow wet ,
dressed up , lying to myself that today will be a new day .
i go to school with all those fake smiles on my face ,
i pulled all my guts to put on a brighter smile to talk to you .
yet knowing that you would ignore me ,
i lied to myself tell myself that you just didnt heard me .
went home hoping that tomorrow would be a better day ,
a better day where you would talk to me .
at night , kneeling beside my bed ,
i started praying to god .
i haven done this for a long time .
so i didnt know what to say but ..
all i asked him for is to make our friendship stronger ..

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Y how could you break my heart && tell me you still love me?
11:07 PM



我应该是坏还是乖
i dont know which should i be so that you would love me.

你喜欢彩色或黑白
im sure you have brought all the colours into my life

你的笑代表拒绝还是等待
your smile ; are you rejecting me or are you asking me to wait ?

答案我解不开
im really lost ! what else can i do.

我应该被动或耍赖
shall i ? or shall i not ? oh! you know i hate making decisions

你喜欢高山或是海
i simply dont know what you like .

或许爱来得太快
&& maybe we start too fast.

忘了所有对白
and thats might be the reason we ended like that.
we just don't know each other well enough.. i think ...
& now when everything is gone, I wonder what I should do.

LOLS !
EVERYTHING HERE MAKES ME THINK OF HIM !
23 more days ; and he should know what im counting .

FIRST MONTH ;
SECOND MONTH ;
THIRD MONTH ;
FOURTH MONTH ;
FIRTH MONTH ; just 23 days ahead !

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3:11 PM



wahs! so late ler worhs !
1.48 ++ liao luhh ~
MORNING LERRS!
hahahahahs !

i still haven sleep worhs ~
still very got energy ..
hehehhehes X)
CHANGED SONG !
JIE SHOU ~ NICE SONG !
heard it on FM9.33 today .
dan first hear dan almost cry barhs ~
cause it decribes me ! sobsobsob ~
hahahhas !
never mind dat !

NOW !
wo yao lai say what happened on friday !
SADSAD !
talking of it makes me wanna CRY !
but i first wanna thank~~

o1. JINGTING
o2. SHULIAN LAOPO
o3. ZONA DEAR
o4. SHEENA DEAR
o5. TAN JUNE JUNE hehehhehe :DDD
o6. XINYI XO
o7. NATALIE NEO
o8. NATALIE's COUSIN !
o9. LOADS LOADS PPL .

hahahhahas ..
xiexie all this ppl , when i crying de shi hou ..
you were there for me ..
BUT SPECIALLY THANKS TO NATALIE's COUSIN :DDDDDD
he supeeeerrrr GOOD ! on that day !
dont know why lars .
maybe shi yin wei i CRY bahs ~
he give me 4 LOLIPOPS !
dan he say SHARE WITH NATALIE ..
hahhahahahs !
HE SO GOOD GIVE ME LOLIPOPS !

xiexieni worhs!
and SPECIAL THANKS TO JING & SHULIAN LAOPO !
they were there to hear me out when i was crying ~
hahhahahs .. so much ppl care for me .
I WAS REALLY VERY GANDONG LUH ~
i really really was nias !
and i think i cry until eyes all red lerr ~
when MR TEH saw wo ..
he like nod his head ( like asking me what happen lidat )
dan i just shook my head dan he didnt ask on .
cos he know if he asked on .. i would cry out liao ~
cos my eyes was FULL WITH TEARS when i shook my head ..

okays . this is what happen okay !
first ..
we was having HMT !
SUPEEERRR FUUUUUNNNN ~~
BO TCHER NIAS !
hahhahahas ... dan shulian dunno run go whr siahs ~
i tink toilet bahs ~
dan i go out find her ..
dan i saw ming han ~ dan i go "PESTER" him for LOLIPOPS !
dan after dat , that 2F BRANDON . tink his name lidat spell de barhs ~
he come down and say that the tcher upstair looking for ~
THE GIRL WHO WAS OUTSIDE JUST NOW ~
man ~~!! sheena was oso outside .. dan that guy he oso dunno who the tcher calling ..
make until very very long ..
dan actually the tchr finding me ~
wahspiangs aa ~~ she call me within 1o sec go uup ~
ehhh ~ come on luh ~ !!
from FIRST FLOOR MY CLASSROOM to the STAIRCASE ON THE OTHERSIDE SECOND FLOOR !
man !!!! you think 1osec enough mehs !
I FLY GIVE YOU SEE LARS ! FLY OSO NOT ENOUGH TIME LUH !!

dan i run luh~
dan reach upstairs .. she say what why did i took so long to come up .
dan i say the guy dunno which girl ~~
dan she CUT ME OFF ! RUDE SIAHS !
nevermind luhs~ dan she say why my skirt so short dan what my fringe ~
PIANGS AA ~ GO UP GIVE HER SCOLD ..
dan nevermind luhh ~ she went down stair to my class ~
dan ask all the girl come out and line upp ~

dan all line up in twos ~
dan she call sheena come out .. dan sheena stand beside me ~
dan after dat she scold scold scold ..
dan nevermind luhs ~ lidat of cos i wun cry lars .
i dont even wanna give a damn man !
buddan hors ! she pull pull pull my fringe dan ask what is this allowed in the school rule ~
PIANGS AA ~ LIKE I HECK CARE BOUT UR FREAKING SCHOOL RULES !
dan nevermind luhs ~~
she before she go hors ! she say i SHAMELESS !!!
wtf ! short skirt = SHAMELESS !!!
wahspiangs aaa ~~
really innocent luhs me !!

DAT WHY I CRY LARS !
i was innocently framed okays !
STUPID TCHER !!
LIKE I EVEN CARE ABOUT YOUR FREAKING SCHOOL RULES !
PIANGS AA .. SAY WHAT STUPID SCHOOL RULES TO ME !
hais ... that day is really suay dao siao cans !
sadsad lars ...

aiya ! no wan say anymore lers !
i wan go sleep lers.. SUPPPPEEERRRR SUPPPPEEERRRR TIRED !
hahahhahs XP buhbyes worhs !

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1:48 AM




heres shi one test !
hahhahahas .. copy if you wan ~
ask from me nias :DDDDDDDD !

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

[ ] Gotten a referral.
[x] Gotten detention.
[x] Gotten your cellphone taken away.
[ ] Gotten suspended.
[x] Chewed gum during class.

TOTAL: 3

[x] Gotten late to a class more than 10 times.
{ counting from primary school XP }
[x] Didn't do homework over 5 times.
[x] Returned at least 5 projects in late.
[x] Missed school cause you felt like it.
[x] Skipped class at least 3 times.

TOTAL: 5

[ ] Got your mom/dad etc. to get you out of school.
[x] Texted people during class.
[x] Passed notes.
[x] Threw stuff across the room.
[x] Laughed at the teacher.

TOTAL: 4

[ ] Pulled down the fire alarm.
[x] Went on myspace; friendster; xanga; etc on the computer in the library
[x] Took pictures during school hours.
[x] Called someone during school hours.
[ ] Listened to an ipod/cd player/mp3 during class.

TOTAL: 3

[x] Threw something at the teacher
[x] Went outside the classroom without permission.
[x] Broke the dress code.
[x] Failed a class test.
[x] Ate food during class.

TOTAL: 5

[ ] Gotten a call home
[ ] Couldn't go on a field trip cause you behaved bad
[x] Didn't take your stuff to school
[ ] Gotten a referral and ripped it up
[ ] Used passes from other days/Or made fake pass
[x] said a cuss word during class loud enough so the teacher could hear

TOTAL: 2

Then, add up your score and times it by 4.

TOTAL SCORE: 88 ( did i add wrong? )

im 88% hated by teachers ((((:
hahahhas . SEE I SO PAIKIA !
ROLFMAO !

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

hmm !
nth much lers . so boring nias!
buhbye ((:

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12:29 AM




for all those times you stood by me ,
for all the truth that you made me see ,
for all the joy you brought to my life ,
for all the wrong that you made right ,
for every dream you made come true ,
for all the love i found in you ,
i'll be forever thankful baby !

you were my strength when i was weak .
you were my voice when i couldn't speak .
you were my eyes when i couldn't see .
you saw the best there is in me .
lifted me up when i couldn't reach .
you gave me faith cause you believed ,
i'm everything i am ,
because you loved me .

you gave me wings and made me fly .
you touched my hands and i could touch the sky .
i lost my faith, you gave it back to me .
you said no star was out of reach ,
you stood by me and i stood tall .
i had your love and i had it all !
i'm grateful for each day you gave me .
maybe i don't know that much ,
but i know this much is true ,
i was blessed because i was loved by you .

you were always there for me ,
the tender wind that carried me ,
a light in the dark shining your love into my life ,
you've been my inspiration ,
through the lies you were the truth .
my world is a better place because of you .

touching words from the bottom of my heart :DDDDDDDD

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9:59 PM




HEYHEYHEY !!

me change blogskin ler . DESIGNED BY WO WORHS !
heehheeehhee ! hope you like it yars !
muacks . IMISSHIM LOADS LOADS <33 ..

hais . me now mood no good .
LOLIPOP WORHS !
lolipops are the only thing dats means more dan anything to me !!
<333 lolipops !

got to go .
these few days hui try to post de !
xiexie ZONA DEAR DEAR n JINGTING !
iloveyou !!
=DDD you totally made my day !

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Y how could you break my heart && tell me you still love me?
10:10 PM




AHHHHHH ~!
im BLOGGING again X)

this week nothing much happen .
hmmm ..
let start REPORTING ~!

MONDAY

got MATH LESSON ..
XP bleuuuuhhhh ~! we do the SIM-CAL ( i think shi lidat spell de lar )
dan ms low , she say that she was laughing when she went through at the survey we did .
hahahahhas .. ESPECIALLY THE LAST QUESTION !!
hahhahas .. which is .. sumting like did your teacher make you love math ..
haahahhahs .. LOLS !
dan after math lesson , me and ZONA dear went to lot 1 to watch movie ..
FIRST , we see the "" happily never after "" ahhahhas ..
the show okay okay lar ,, quite funny lor ~
dan after the show , we two walk ar walk .. walk till LEG TIA LEH ~~~
hahahhahs .. buey tahan ar ~ soo ..
we go watch another movie !! LOLS !
we got watch the "" JUST FOLLOW LAW ""
hahahhaas .. SUPERR THE FUNNY CAN !!
hahahhas .. to those ppl who have watch the show ..
SERIOUSLY LOR ~ the ahma really have blog lehh ~
www.laozhabor.blogspot.com .. hahhahahas ..
THAT AHMA SO ~~~~ COOLLL ~~~ man ~
hahhahahahs XP

WEDNESDAY

alamak , wednesday also math lesson luhh ~
i go school with JINGTING !!
hahahhas ... we meet at the bus interchange there luhh ~
wahh ~ suay suay sia ~
take mrt de shi hou .. ezlink card tio stuck zai inside lehh ~
dan i meeting jingting at 9 .
dan the uncle say he will come down help me take out .
what the hell .. i wait so long lehh ~
wait ar wait .. he still never come ..
i from 8.25 wait till 8.5o+ lidat luuhh ~
dan luckily jingting also haven come out house yet ..
so when i reach de shi hou she haven reach ~~
hahahhahs !

hmmm .. dan dao school de shi hou only bout 9.25 lidat bah ..
i not so sure lar .. dan jingting pei me go 7-11 buy chocolate .
XP bleuuuuhhh ~ hahhas .. jingting and me super the funny luhh~
we walk to school dan jingting 边sing ""专属天使"" 边walk ..
hahhahhas .. very funny .. dan i walk and eat chocolate ..
hahhahas .. dan i see behind us the woman look at us like we siao one lidat ..
hahhahahs XP bleuuuuhhh ~!
dan about reach school dan we saw yuan xiang at the gate there .
dan me and jingting was like siao char bor lidat ,,
waving at yuanxiang .. hahahhahs X)

dan we went inside .. saw JUNE ..
dan we all walk up to the 4th floor ..
the classroom we used on MONDAY .. dan the door LOCKED !!
sobsob .. we four was like the first to reach !
X) bleuuuhhh !!
ahahhas ~ dan ms low suddenly from the classroom next to it come out ..
xia dao wo lehh ~
hahhahahas .. anyway ..
she say change classroom ~
dan in class de shi hou .. i still haven eat finish my chocolate lehh ~
dan i never listen to what ms low talking .. dan down there drawing ..

aaa .. very sian de lehh ~ hahhahas ..
i was like drawing and eating chocolate ..
hahahahs .. i tink ms low saw me eating ar ..
hahhahas .. but she bo say anything ~
dan jingting give me sweet ~
LOLS !
we like having mini party lidat .. got sweet got chocolate ..
dan THE PERSON I HATE sat behind me lorr !!!!!!
ARGGGG ~! but never mind .. the person i hate hai wo one person sit !!
sobsobsob .. i want to sit with jingting de ..
but than she go sit with jingting ~~ sobsobsob!!
dan me and SHULIAN laopo ... was pasting paper message ..
LOLS ! alamak ~ I FORGOTTEN TO BRING MATH TEXTBOOK LUHH ~
hhahahahs .. tio scolding dan must stand upp ~

hahahas X)
anyway .. after math lesson ..
i go change into PE .. hahahahs ..
shulian laopo they all follow me too XP
xiexie worhs !
change wan ler hou .. we walk go foyer there ar ..
dan senior was waiting for us .. we all was like quite late ler
dan we together walk fastfast go to cck the lrt control station there ..
meet up with the rest ..
hahahhahas .. than we take bus go to the jurong west sec there ..
hahhas .. guess dao we go there do what ler marh ?
hahhahahs .. WE GO THERE PLAY BBALL MATCH ~
LMAO ! waahh ~ than keep on stoping becos of the stupid rain ~
argggg ... my thing all wet luuhh ~
dan everytime rain dan stop dan rain dan stop ..
argg .. dan we have to run to the shelter there ..
classroom block i think ..

wahhh ... raining quite long ar ..
dan we sit there talk talk dan ..
play with each others' handphone ..
dan listen to music dan .. wahh~
i almost sleep luh ~ hhahahhas XP
dan when i about to sleep ler ..
it STOPPED RAINING -.=;;;
hais .. cannot sleep ler ~
anyway ... yishun town sec . jurong west sec . jurong sec .
we playing against three school ..
but i think we playing the jurong west sec match de shi hou ..
started raining again luhh ~
this time .. we bo time to run to the shelter .. everyone all hide inside the sumting like ""SHELTER"" lidat ..
ahhahahhas.. quite small luhh ... dan the bags like all wet ~

got this guy lar .. i tink shi from jurong west sec de ..
he carrying all the stuffs to the shelter ar ..
dan he in the rain marhh ~ dan he carry the last thing the WATER THING ..
dan i tink he asked the coach .. what to do , very heavy leh ~ cannot carry ~
ahahhahs !!
dan the coach say he stupid ar .. donno how to pour out the water ..
dan carry the thing .. wakakkakakas !
dan his face was like so paiseh lidat ~ hahhahhas XP

dan in the end .. everyone all share umbrella ..
run to the voiddeck there .. dan all plan to go home luh ..
hahahhas .. dan we was like playing and playing .. hahhahas ..
dan aiyar lidat luhh ~ dan zhenyan say what pour water on me ..
but shi joking de lar .. dan ysabel jie seriously ... thought serious mar ..
go pour 1OOPLUS ! on me siahh ~ hahahhahas .. dan my PE got 100 plus smell ..
ROFLMAO ! dan we play play play dan finally .. some of us lar .. decided to go JURONG POINT walk walk lor .. dan all the sec1 all go home .. except me and jasmin follow them ..
hahhahahs .. dan we go eat macdonalds' dan we go up walk walk ..
dan we saw ths shop call UMMI COLLECTIONS ..
LMAO !! dan we was like teasing ummi dat her father so rich ..
go open a shop for her .. hahahhahs !
dan time to go home ler .. hahhahas ..
in the mrt we was like keep playing and taking photos !
LOLS !

FRIDAY

hahhahas .. friday got bball training ..
lols .. i went to school .. dan alamak !
i forgotten to bring the BALL !!
shyt man !! ahahahs .. dan i call my father bring the ball to school for me ..
ahhaahahhas .. dan luckily the BALL came before COACH ..
hahhahahs .. luck horh !
dan we have match , dan i play until FALL DOWN ..
cos take the ball marh ~
dan alamak ~ fall down luhh ~ leg bleeding but still go on playing lar .
wahh .. dan my dat team lost ~ sobsob ..
have to do the crab thingy ar ..
wahh .. leg very pain ..
dan the sec3 senior saw dan pass me the alcohol thingy to clean the wound ..
dan i dun wan put marh .. dan the sec3 senior come help me do ~
AHHHH ~!! so pain man ~~~
hhahahhahhas .. seriously luhh .. it was damn pain !!

dan after dat me and shulian went to mac to buy fries ! hahhahs ..
dan we went 7-11 , i buy greentea XP dan shulian buy the brain freeze tingy ..
hahhahhaas .. dan inside the bus .. i go kajiao a primary small boy lar ..
hahhahahs .. play play only marh ..
HE IGNORE ME LEH ~ LOLS !
anyway , reach cck ler .. dan me and shulian go LOT 1 walk walk .. HAHAS !
i buy a ring lehh .. a pig pig ring .. hahahs the pig red colour de ..
$2.90 WORHS ! dan walk walk walk .. nothing much ler ..
dan go home ler luhh ~
shulian and me went our SEPERATE WAYS !
hhhaahhas .. say until like wanna die wanna die lidat ~
hahhahs .. anyway .. i took lrt home marh .. dan i saw JEICHIEL AND FARAH ~
on the other side of the platform .. -.=;; ahhahas .. i was in the train luhh ..
dan i stopped at petir . dan jechiel and farah came to petir to meet me ..

dan jeichiel say that the boys .. " junjie . guanpoh . lianghong . jason . they all "
was at the petir bball court .. dan i went to see them luhh ~
i called xenia come down lar .. BECOS OF SOMEONE THERE ..
not gonna tell you who hahhahas .. =X
xenia come ler .. dan we talk tis talk dat .. hahhas .. jiu shi alot things to talk ..
hahhahahs ... dan i took JJ's phone .. don let him and guanpoh go ..
hahhahahs XP .. end up they was like almost late for their soccer training luhh ~
lmao .. dan we take taxi ..
JJ and guanpoh took one taxi ..
dan me , jeichiel , xenia and farah took another taxi ..
JJ and guanpoh say they pay leh ~ hahhahhas XP

after dat , xenia go meet her friends .
dan me jeichiel farah go take neoprint ..
aiyar .. dan got alot thing happen ..
i lazy to type lerr !
hahhhaahhas XP yesterday was like so so so FUN !!!
hhahahahas ..

here's a song for you ..
sweet sweet song nias ..



got to go finish wo de homework lerr ..
BUHBYE !

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